so, work's been ok. studying's been ok. was just back from a major shopping trip which left me super drained. nonetheless, it was fun :)
haven't been blogging for a while and it's usually when i'm feeling down in the dumps when i start to blog and type randomly.
i made a lot of new friends recently. most are nice and of course, some isn't. but most importantly, i'm really glad i'm closer friends with my old friends. it's almost like a renewal of old friendship which are now stronger. whenever i feel crappy, i take comfort in my family, my job and my awesome friends. i mean seriously, what could get worse than losing those 3. i don't ask for everything to be perfect but when i counted my blessings, those 3 always makes me more settled :)
i've got more responsibilities, more pressure from work and more journals to read. i've made weird friends and even my sister agrees she's got weird friends.
still! i'm totally addicted to this song. the lyrics are meaningful although not much relevant to me but i'm a sucker for Sara Bareilies. she's so cool. so, here's one of her new songs, which is totally on my repeat track by far.
sorry for the lack of updates. have been busy with stuff lately and didn't have the luxury of time to sit down and type out something at my own leisure.
nothing much has really happened. work has been fantastic so far. i enjoy being around with my crazy colleagues and my totally cute and insane girls, i feel so cheered up when i step into class and a whole bunch of joy springs out at me. Teaching blocks become more enjoyable and my other paper work seems to be going on fine. somehow, it assures me that i'm more settled with my job and i'm rather satisfied with the current state of things.
well anyway, i've taken ill. and hence i'm home typing this. my temperature has been rising consistently and i decided against going to work lest i infect other people. Strange thing is, i feel perfectly fine though my temperature is at 38.0 degrees. slept the day away and the doctor has issued me a 3 day medical leave...so basically i don't have to go back to work for the rest of the week. i know i should rejoice and bask in this short hiatus from work. but i don't seem quite relaxed that i have work to clear and my classes to teach.
on another note, i bumped into angela who was going to work when i was done with work yesterday evening. sigh. i made a trip down to the jurong lib and visit the little corner i used to mug my ass off from 10am to 5pm, when i'll go home and watch ellen. i miss my uni friends and studying. i'd give anything to do those things all over again.
i feel miserable and disgusted how i am torturing myself. i'm trying hard to distract myself but i still fail to do so. help help help. i seriously think i need something to vent and confide in, something i can cry to and something that will comfort me and tell me it's alright.
haven't blogged for such a long time. mainly because everytime i wanna post something, blogger is down. oh well...updates finally!
many thanks to H1N1, all activities after school have been cancelled. i can't say that i'm disappointed because we're not to loiter in school when its dismissed, so once the bell rings, i GO HOME! oh my god! i'm like so damn happy everytime i get back because i get to take a nap, wake up, do some work on my laptop then go for a swim or even a jog, then dinner and sleep. how shiok is THAT. but then again, i know that once H1N1 is not so bad, i'll have an avalanche of after school activities. eeks. not looking forward to it.
anyway, check this out. it's employers' dreams but a workaholic and an employee's nightmare:
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MOH has commenced the issue of a 10-day Medical Certificate (MC) for students 12 years old and below, and a 7-day MC for staff and students above 12 years old, for those with flu-like symptoms
ok! i'm sleepy already on this lazy saturday. will go take a nap and hopefully blog more later on!
haven't been feeling the best of sorts lately. i can't really pin point what's wrong..i just know that something's not quite right. there are times when i know that i think my life's near perfect and i feel truly satisfied with life. but at this moment, i don't feel a sense of accomplishment or anything. and that, is not a good thing.
I got off work early today i was on a major gastric flu infection after a whole string of birthday celebrations. So tuesday and wednesday was spent recuperating at home, sleeping and also alot of vomitting. Work has been alright although there's still some amount of work to be done. my girls have been kind to me so classroom management is so much easier.
Monday was one horrid day. I was having such a serious mega migraine that i puked out everything in the staff toilet and some of my colleagues thought it was a serious case of monday blues. tell me about it. still, i had to attend a meeting till 6pm before spending another 2hrs in office finishing up some more work. thank god for M who decided to come down to school, take me out for dinner before sending a very sick me back home to spend the rest of the night dying.
Anyway, i bought new books to read over the long break! i'm also planning to catch more movies over the next few days. i'm in desperate need for Chick flicks and laugh my bimbo dumb side away.... at the expense of my movie companion.
tracy reminded me the existence of my blog. i have tons of photo to load up but i keep procrastinating for god knows what reason. anyway, it's really high time i blog. many things have happened over the week.
i'm just blogging now because i have to wait till 11pm before meeting M. it makes me wanna doze off right now.
ok on second thoughts, maybe i should just go nap first. updates another time!
1) I LOVE THE VOLKS GTI I'M DRIVING TO WORK NOW!!!! 2) i'm not a horrible and terrible driver as i thought i am to be. in fact, i'm really good at parking too 3) my dad now believes i'm good at driving after seeing how i drive the volks sports baby 4) i love the feel of blasting Michael Jackson and Justin Timberlake on the modified speakers as i cruise through town to work 5) i miss my mummy and M who are both in Bangkok 6) i'm begining to love my job alot 7) i'm happy that my cubicle is decorated with pretty pretty flowers 8) i've got my payyyy! 9) i've got my coach bag! 10) i'm damn glad my life's going so perfect (:
photos of the new car when i have get my hands on the SLR.
i feel damn asphyxiated when i'm at home with the sister and the dad. i become the other end of both their frustrations. the sister's still damn mean to me and is still hiding the DKNY green apple we're supposed to share and still takes all my clothes everyday. and because of that, i don't see why i should so kind to her when she's damn evil to me. plus she doesn't exactly talk to me. she yells at me. ok so happens that the dad is being terribly bias towards the sister and against me. because i wasn't concerned enough for the jie, the dad now bears a grudge against me! he gives me that glare and stare which he usually gives when he's damn pissed with you. and if you don't know my dad, you probably don't really understand what i'm going through. and so! now the sister is mean to me, the dad helps to share all her problems/worries and then he doesn't give a damn about me at all! it makes me so upset that he doesn't even bother about my worries or feelings. i've tried to share my problems to him before but all he does is shrugs it off. i mean, it's ok if you think my worries are not valid but at least listen and share my worries with me?
sigh
anyway, to make things slightly better, there was the Hilton hotel tea party with Uncle peter. it was really much grander than i expected. i entered the ballroom and it was filled with cakes cakes cakes and more cakes! and i love cakes! i nearly hyperventilated and died there when i saw all the sweet treats in front of me. and thank god i didn't have lunch because i just kept eating all the cheese cakes one after another. and ooohhh the strong brewed coffee! i felt like i was in heaven for that short 3hrs. yumyum
then i met karen and devin for shopping! had such a swell time shopping for His and Her clothes and then we had a long chat over Spinelli's coffee at Heeren. by the time i got home, i just died on the bed.
and this afternoon, my sweetest babe a-ya sent me such a package of clothes! =D vehhh happy! air flown from Taipei! wheee!
hello pretty clothes!
for one, i miss this girl hell lots. doesn't make it any better when she's in taipei and i may just get a ticket to taipei after i grad. and alsooo, i can't wait to go HK! the stupid bird flu may hold back plans to hk since i can't take the flu vaccine since it's cultured from eggs. soooo... it's either i risk it, go hk, buy my loot and die a happy person, or, don't risk anything and sulk for the rest of my holidays.
anyway, another wedding dinner tonight! wheee! i'm soo loving my life man.
given that over last weekend and this week's a much more peaceful week, i finally had some own space and air to breathe. after some random talks with the people i've met up, i finally concluded that i really don't know what i want. my point of view of work, life, attitude, dating, relationship, marriage has all changed. It's like, you finally see things differently in a more realistic way. forget what-ifs and throw away maybe-s. i used to think that if i think and wish hard enough, i might just get what i want. i used to think be so innocent and assume that if you're focused enough, things will just work out right.
but i finally figured out that i'm just one lost soul. i don't know what i'm going after. i guess this is what they call a crisis right? i can't believe that i'm becoming so skeptical and cynical with life in general. this is definitely bad.
on another note. yesterday's lab was outfield to Bukit Timah nature reserve! It's really fun and this time, instead of trekking in torrential rain, the weather was perfect and everyone was having such a swell time. despite the fun, i'm more than sure that i don't belong to the Biology concentration. give me back my lab coat and pipettes anytime.
this is the plant we're working with. Clidemia hirta. found along trails of forests and they are hairy hairy. hehe
First, you trek through the forest
then you enjoy the flora of the forest and see things like Lingzhi and an interesting christmas tree.
then you spot something! stretch out your hand and touch it. if it's hairy, it's the plant!
and then you do the necessary measurements.
there you have it! that was lab yesterday. and then there's the horrid part of writing the report.
backtrack a little more, was dinner date with Karen (: we did so much shopping in vivo and i'm so glad i exercised my self control when i was at Mango and topshop. bought nothing!! damn happy. instead, i think i made Karen spend more money there by picking up the clothes i think looks sweet. oops.
Dinner was at sushi tei..Cha soba. Hotate and Avocardo Dragon roll. yummy! we over ordered and wanted to puke after dinner. too bad my camera was out of batt or i would have snapped more photos of the delicacies
ok..i look like i haven't slept for days and my smile looks frozen and stiff. sigh.
whee! done! quite looking forward to this weekend...for no particular reason. maybe i just need a longer break.
it's amazing i haven't felt the absence of you yet.
